Recovery Resolutions

January 07, 2016

And just like that we're a week into 2016. As with most new years, I can't help but take a look back. Though I say this every year, this past year was a game-changer. It was the year I accepted myself (including my ED) and learned to love myself. It was the year I explored 5 other states. It was the first year I spent the holidays in the US. It was a year of honestly and it was a year of growth to say the least. So, here's a glimpse into my past self, the squirmy baby to the awkward brace face and finally the most recent picture of me at Christmas.

I wanted to remind myself of who I was before recovery and even waaaay before my eating disorder. I had been chasing this version of happy that I felt during my freshman year of college and thought that pursuing the ultimate "healthy" lifestyle would bring back that happiness I felt. Ultimately, through recovery, I've learned that although it's important to be happy, being healthy is more important. And not just in the stereotypical physical sense but the whole package--mind, body AND soul. In reality, healthy entails allowing yourself to feel the highs as well as the lows. It's listening to your feelings and realizing your presence. It means being you! 

Though I don't really make strict clear-cut New Year Resolutions as it has often led to feelings of disappointment in the past, I thought it would be a neat idea to outline where I want my ED recovery to go in this year. In no particular order, here are the things I want to work on in the upcoming months:
  • Weight Restoration! Hopefully alongside this comes getting my period again (sorry for the TMI) after almost a year & a half
  • Intuitive/Mindful Eating -- rebuilding the trust with my body, being able to listen to what I want to eat & when I want to eat it
  • Be able to exercise again without going overboard: running with the sun in my face, getting in a relaxing stretch at yoga, attending Zumba classes, going stand-up paddle-boarding, running the Turkey Trot with my cousins, etc etc. 
  • Eating at a "normal" pace as to not make others feel awkward eating around me. Not feeling rushed or pressured when time is limited
  • Become strong enough in my recovery to share my personal journey and inspire others! 

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