• Visited the OBGYN..
• ....where i may or may not have almost passed out after getting blood drawn 😶
• Faced my fear and watched a scary movie: A Quiet Place; not as bad as I thought it'd be!
• Also saw The Greatest Showman with my friend.
• Made this super dee duper easy vegan cobbler served with strawberry ice cream for additional deliciousness.

• Met with the dietician I've been working with for 3 years--since the beginning of my recovery--for the final time. Definitely bittersweet but it was nice to reflect on how far I've come since then.
• Because of that, also reached out to new ones and actually already saw one last week.
• Took my last tests on this campus! WHAAAT??!!? 😩

• Prepped my stuff for graduation this week, gown and all.
• After years, finally went to the eye doctor again!
• Got a haircut a week ago. Still don't know how I feel about it; wish it were an inch or so longer as it's not sitting the way I want it to. 

• Had the pleasure of seeing Les Miserables live! As one of if not the first musicals I listened to, it was absolutely breathtaking. 
• Watched the new Avengers movie. No spoilers from me I promise!! Though in case you need a refresher on the past 18 movies, check out this informative and interactive article. 

• Baked and distributed chocolate chip coconut cookies for my teachers as a token of my appreciation.
• Had last days of classes as well as the last shift as a tutor, where my last tutee gave me a brownie! What a nice end to things. 

• Finished three books!
• Enjoyed the remainder of the time on campus by eating meals or studying at my usual spots, walking more slowly, and taking pictures. 

• Posted on ze blog two times with my April food post and random thoughts on how i'm feeling about life at the moment if you'd like to give 'em a read. 
• Actually took my 3rd (of 4!) CPA exams just this morning. And now it's time for a power nap before getting back to it. 😴 

Linking up for a quick session of Thinking Out Loud

a good spot to think

Aside from the weeks in review, random must-reads or monthly food recaps, I've been pretty silent on here. I've found that I'm less introspective when life is going well; less in touch with my feelings. Now things in all aspects--mentally, socially, physically, emotionally--seem to be on high note.  I don't know what to make of it. But perhaps this is simply what contentedness feels like. It's really odd feeling this way; I'm not accustomed to it. So I still worry. Still overthink. The way I describe it is that I'm waiting for the floor to give out from underneath me, which isn't a great way to live either. I have been trying to actively challenge this. To accept things as they may come and trust that I have it in me to cope with whatever comes my way, good or bad.

"Now and then it's good to pause in our pursuit of happiness and just be happy." 

Along the lines of things going well... part of me also feels bad when I don't have much to talk about in therapy sessions because there is nothing I really have to process. I actually brought this up to my therapist about this recently and she tried to provide an analogy to understand it. Early on in recovery, my support system was likely to check in with me pretty constantly: if I was eating enough and regularly, how my appointments went, etc. Then as I progressed, it became less needed. Similarly, from a mental perspective, when things are going well maybe I am not as introspective as I was because I don't necessarily need to be.

Hmm, that's about it from me. Here's to making it to (almost) the end of the week!!

Questions:
Do you doubt when things are going well in your life?
Are you more introspective when life gets bumpy?  
What are you feeling good about at the moment?